So I did it... Yesterday I signed up at the entrance examination for Psycology...
It always been my dream,attending psycology,but I never really tried to join. I finally did it now that I'm almost 23 years old, I should be graduated by now... what a shame.
But I already know that I'm not going to make it,they will only take 470 students and 700 joined already since July 15...
Also I took "fake-test" and man... I KNOW NOTHING. There were questiosn about Politics... I didnt even know what the fuck the question meant of who were that people in the list.I barely know who is the president of my state ... That's a shame,I'm an idiot! And I dont remember that much of History...(nevermid I hated history when I was in high school). I'm gonna fail that's a given. So... not only I will have to luive with the fact that I will never attentend the university I always dreamed of but I will have to stand the fact that I'm an idiot,that I failed AGAIN and that 470 people are better than me. Sometimes I just think I have a big ego and that's why failing affects me so much; but I guess truth is I have no self esteem at all and a new fail its gonna break me anf makes me feel like shit for too long.
Why I joined for this ammission test? I think its going to be the biggest mistake of my life. But on the other hand,I really need to do it,cause If I never try I will live with the weight that I never really made an effort. So I'm gonna fail, I'm gonna feel bad and I'll have to accept the fact that I cant do the job and the school I always loved to but at least I made an effort,I tried .
If I'm not gonna make it (which I'm sure ...) I'll attend the university of arts and the Environment which Is my second choice, and no test for this LOL.
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